A Creative Stance on Cognitive Dissonance

Haiku

2010-09-08T14:48:00.000-07:00

Starlings in an oak
Shreiking loudly their warning
The fox is hunting

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Still

2010-09-08T14:29:00.000-07:00

If only time were still!-
With a patience that does kill
sounding of a tick-tock;
or an alarm bell
from the hands of a clock
Moving quickly through moments;
Can't freeze the tick-tock
Of hours passing by
From old Father Time
Fueling a mortal's shock!

Reality weighs heavy
Upon our thoughts
tick-tock tick-tock
How quickly life flies by
Time does not stand still
Waits for no one
Finds a clever thrill
In an unexpected mortal ending
tick-tock tick-tock
reminding us only once
Cherish the time given to you
by that infinite clock.

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The End is the End

2010-09-07T16:36:00.000-07:00

Who will care about squirrels climbing maple boughs,
And ants marching along green grass blades,
Or those dolphins breaching not far from the shores?
Man defaces nature with chainsaws and plows,
Where trees once stood now buildings with great colonnades,
Green prairies now strip malls and department stores.

Man versus Nature in an endless feud
Both a power struggle and a strange mystery;
Their future demise still afar,
Yet when this war will conclude,
The end of their future is the end of their history
And their destruction guarantees a final au revoir.

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Nature Dream

2010-09-07T15:02:00.000-07:00

I dream of wild fields of red clover;
Those beautiful serene places outside,
I dream of living free like a rover,
And not stuck behind some desk inside.

I dream of enjoying nature’s raw beauty
And not suffering workdays stressing
Over some rigorous mundane duty,
So tiresome and depressing.

Oh, to dream of a flowering prairie;
Or of getting lost in a wooded place,
I’ll take time to admire an osprey’s aerie,
And feel a tree trunk in my embrace.

The wind on my face like a touch of heaven,
See raindrops on a pond’s surface stir rings,
And envy that flying flock of eleven,
For they know freedom on the tips of their wings.

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Sweet Song Sung

2010-09-07T01:50:00.000-07:00

Heartbeats gathered and tied up in soft lace
Beat amongst a cut-out heart paper strand;
Which swings gently in tree limbs with such grace,
Sings a soft love song with the wind across the land,
Two lovers walk the woods in silent solitude,
The love they share is bright and unbound
And their happiness sets the mood,
For the undying romance they have found;
Hand in hand they sore high above
Just like two joyous springtime birds:
So content with their new found love,
That I love yous are their most cherished words.

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That Face

2010-09-05T06:04:00.000-07:00

That face
nearly always the same with only a few slight differences

like symbols-
numbers
or
roman numerals.

That face
is a constant in our lives has hands as lips though not symmetical

one side-
shorter
than
the other.

That face
wears sidways smiles,

sometimes pursed lips straight,
or frowns oddly crooked.

That face,
it registers our moments like butterfly wings

fluttering upon a dayfly's heartbeat.

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In The Offing

2010-09-05T06:02:00.000-07:00

Horizon
Far away
Moving, unmoving, undulating
Anguishing thoughts on edge
Fringe

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Hours That Fly

2010-09-05T06:00:00.000-07:00

Constant sounding ticks
Calculating sums of time
Hours that fly by

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Nourishment

2010-09-05T05:58:00.002-07:00

Nourishment from rain
enveloping sunlight warmth
brings life to this earth

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Fall Dance

2010-09-05T05:58:00.001-07:00

Leaf dancing down
to the ground upon the breeze
your graceful ending

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Endless

2010-09-05T05:57:00.002-07:00

The days are endless
or so the stress makes them feel
I can't seem to breathe

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Lone Deer

2010-09-05T05:57:00.001-07:00

Lone deer inthe field
obliviously grazing
how I envy you

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Nature's Tears

2010-09-05T05:55:00.000-07:00

Nature sheds her tears
because of the changing years
and her many fears

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Theomastix

2010-09-05T05:54:00.000-07:00

Material lust
Greed, gain, power hungry thirst,
All come with a price

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Tristisonous

2010-09-05T05:53:00.000-07:00

Morning paper news
daily depictions of gloom
more hate, war, and crime

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Autumn's Soft Song

2010-09-05T05:52:00.001-07:00

Birch tree in the breeze
Your leaves dance downward in tune
with Autumn’s soft song

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Like Religion

2010-09-05T05:50:00.000-07:00

Politicians lie
twisted tongues deceiving us-
trusting believers

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Acataleptic Certainty

2010-09-05T05:49:00.000-07:00

Death
Mortal time
Drifting into eternity
Aeviternal soul without skin
Hereafter
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Square Peg Round Hole

2010-09-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

Square peg…round hole
I don't fit
bend the piece
make it fit…for awhile
bend the piece
until it breaks
damn…it broke
I am broken
Emotions torment
tears fall
bewail the silence
my thoughts
scattered across pages
acquiring a measure
of immortality
remembered…like ink floating
forever on an atonal manuscript
emotion is
a picture worth
a thousand words
emotion is
a word worth
a thousand pictures
Which has more value?
azure is a pretty word
it colors emotions so well
I am writing pictures
and painting words
but…
I don't want my ink to fade
or my paint to crack
I don't want
my words…my pictures
to grow dim
obscured by time
I want to fit in
square peg…round hole
I fear I will never fit in
In a blink…I see
myself grappling with the hem of time
as it hurries by-stops to wait…for none
How do you capture still moments
that move so quickly?

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Springtime

2010-09-05T05:27:00.000-07:00

my heart in springtime is
an environment of extremes
cold thoughts interlaced
with desperate hopelessness
long stretches of aridity punctuated
by unyielding bursts of punishing emotions
continually teased by rose thorn stems
crowned with a multitude of blooms
each composed of petals
promising to erupt
into beautiful flowers
of specific colors
each baring symbolic meanings
none of which ever pertain to me
except for colors like indigo or other
shades of blue- I think
melancholy is beautiful
that feeling of being stuck
in staccato alterations of awareness
where oblivion culminates within the final
few heartbeats of the chances
that you have left until
the seasons change again
always bringing about the
constant certainty of surprise
leaving you hanging on for dear life
for one more springtime

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Souls Andogynous

2010-09-05T05:19:00.000-07:00

Zeus feared
that great creature

with
four arms
four legs
and
two faces
upon a single head

Zeus humbled its
pride
in an act
of
condemnation
split it
in two
crating both
male and female
dimished in strength
but
increased in
numbers

humankind
forever
fated to search
for
the match
the mate
the other half
sometimes
found in one life
sometimes not
until the next
or the next
or the next
how many
times
overshall we live
to
find our
perfect end?

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Slack-Petal

2010-09-04T13:57:00.000-07:00

first light
still dew on
pink-washed
cloudy blossoms
forced
as they are
against the sun
on thin,
over-supple stems
grow pale
and
slack-petalled
echoing
simple and bare-
quiet
beautifully
tumbling
d
o
w
n
h
i
l
l
against time
towards
their cold winter's rest

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Rock and Water

2010-09-04T06:08:00.000-07:00

all in time,
held suspended
in sweet motion
like the rise and fall of tides
two souls calling out
reaching for each other

inner echoes beckoning
from deep depths
like seashells held
close to listening ears

want and desire
patience and love;
everything and nothing
not making a sound
making a sound

stone thrown
skipped across
rhythmic tidal face
like gentle kisses
tasting liquid flesh

stone comes to sink
at last swallowed
by deeper water
circles of response
deep dwelling rings
felt everywhere

surface penetration
two souls touch
rock and water
lost in sinkable depths
light and firm
exact
once in
in forever

hard and soft
beneath water covers
heart found beating
in the breast of another
tastes of sea salt,
like sweat and tears

waves like circles
and exhausted breath
on warm flesh

water dissolving stone
like sugar and
cosmic release…

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Reflections

2010-09-04T06:07:00.001-07:00

One window locked
on the inside: promising
to keep the world out
she is struggling back-to-life.

In the mirror’s reflected image-
her face is a perfect blank,

her eyes unfocused into mine,
mine into hers, generating

a motion sickness-of sorts
so much for trying-to fool myself.

Mirrored similarities and
stories tell of a sad girl-she

a familiar stranger
I’ve known all my life.

Yeats described her well
and her tormenting hell;

melancholy is a pretty name.
She is beautiful: I should love her.

My hands: clumsy
like oversized garden gloves

on narrow wrists
trace a downward smile

upon her lips-against
her cold mirrored flesh.

What a beautiful girl
fully dressed: made up-makeup,

beautiful disaster in raw flesh
with no clothes on: scarred.

I am her and she is me
our thoughts are but the same

our shared soul: perfect
under our tattered clothes-

clothes like skin: so much underneath
Reflections cannot capture this.

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Real Love is Truth

2010-09-04T06:03:00.000-07:00

Real love is truth
and truth is lost to slippery concepts
saturated in shades of grey
that bleed crimson red
disguised as the lust
that speaks empty words
used to gain instant pleasures
void of emotion
like a black hole
collapsed inside itself
an endless abyss
of darkness and no hope
a secret adroit
in search of any or all to consume
devouring the truth
that is love
revealing the hopelessness
of a material world

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Quick Fixes

2010-09-04T06:00:00.000-07:00

Seven days straight-black coffee,
his fuel to survive what
he must endure-his loneliness.
Nicotine marrow tickles his tongue,
addiction inhaled deeply
from rolled paper bones
a quick fix in lit flame
keeps him feeling okay.
His fingers find the
cold steel strings
of his guitar, he
plays a sad chord, or
two
three
or four.
The beautiful noise,
drowning his pain while
echoing his sad heartbeat.
He’s aged quickly-his face
wearing deep worn ridges
and worry lines and filled
with veins snapped off
every inch by the force
of his quick fix bad habits,
revealing his older than he is age.
Loneliness and despair
bleeding his life away
while he loses himself in his
quick fix music- aching melodies
momentarily releasing him

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Python-Snug

2010-09-04T05:57:00.000-07:00

Clepsydra is the rock under falling water
And the dealate angel can tell time
with a sad teardrop constructed chime
sounding off every second with the crying rain
Time is not unlike a barbed ventricle chain
lashed severely around a living heart
in multiple coils tight and ready to tear it apart
Time is python-snug in its slow deliberate suffocation
Time is here to remind us eternity is our destination

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Pretty Wrapping Paper

2010-09-04T05:48:00.000-07:00

1. Wrapping paper: sometimes expensive
with fancy labels, depending on the occasion.

She is beautiful with her clothes on
all wrapped up-men see her and want her.

Eyes, deep ocean blue: men could drown
in the geographical center of her sea,

but she doesn’t let them swim,
she doesn’t let them drift in-just nearby.

2. Visible portions of skin glow
under a warm sunset sky-silver

full moon nights illuminate
her pouty lips: makes a man

want her-want to unwrap her,
touch her, breathe her,

taste her, feel her, see her,
be in her- fulfilling his fantasies.

3. He unwraps her: horrified,
not what he wanted-not expected.

His fantasy turned nightmare-accidentally
judging a book by her cover.

Deceiving dust jacket-lust jacket-a pretty wrapping
hides a jaded present unwanted: truth is

the scar-the flaw exposed, is where
her reality and his lies-collide.

4. He pretends it doesn’t matter when
he sees it-she pretends it doesn’t hurt

when he looks at her and says without
meaning-he loves her-unconditionally.

Conditional I love yous-pillars of meaningless sex
we can make love- if only you

keep your shirt on-turn out the lights and stay
partially wrapped, pretty still-flaw hidden.

5. She’s conditioned herself
to not feel a damn thing.

Scarred flesh-never touched,
a part of her that remains virgin still

He won’t touch her there-ever
she doesn’t touch it-doesn’t look at it.

Her heart and soul knows
not love only sex-empty and void.

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6. Wrapping paper sometimes expensive,
with fancy labels depending on the occasion,

dust jacket: lust jacket hiding her flaws
pretty wrapping–a clever deception

until the naked truth is exposed,
men to come and go: men cum and go…

One Question

2010-09-04T05:38:00.000-07:00

Our metal butterfly wings flutter in smiles
With our many ant like legs which carry us miles.
Our fly eyes pour antagonistic frowns,
Human flesh just beetled carapace gowns.
We are but bugs in multitude,
Our human design still very crude;
Just the beginning larval stage.
A true potential we cannot yet gage,
Yet one question still does remain,
Will this be a potential we will ever attain?

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A thought inspired by the quote “We will have the wings of eagles when the fallen angels fly”-Billy Jo Shaver

Porcelain

2010-09-04T05:37:00.001-07:00

Like porcelain
my heart breaks
spider-veining fissures
grow to consume its last
rhythmic beat
of hope...
the knife of reality
stabs at me playfully
toying with me
a sick game
never taking hold
completely
never finishing the kill
a sea of confusion
washes through my brain
sucking me under
drowning me in fear
my heart's shattered
illusions crash a my feet
destroying the reflections
of broken dreams
and echoed once more
in the dying beat of my heart
before it completely succumbs
to the despair
crimson droplets of tears
streak down my face
staining red
my reality...

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Pinholes

2010-09-04T05:32:00.000-07:00

I am among the miscellaneous items,
none of significance; cast away
forgotten like the carapaces of dead insects
littering the ground beneath marching feet.
Lost within a long beat of silence-
the noiseless hum-like a prolonged seizure,
this, the status epilepticus of my heart-
whose echo hops like a frog among
the false pillars of fairytale hopes and
dreams pushed into nightmares through
the star burned pinholes of a midnight sky.

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Pinch Back

2010-09-04T05:31:00.000-07:00

Her eye lids pinch back tears
a feigned smile hides her fears,
gone today is yesterday;
while tomorrow arrives at the close of today,
as times plays a cruel twisted game-
the tick-tock clock will never be tame;
keeps on going its own way
forever onward from today,
not backwards only forward,
quite punctual, exact, and straightforward
she wants to pinch it back like an unshed tear
growing old-unfinished is her greatest fear
and time waits for no one-
definitely not her.

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Our Secret Atlantis Found

2010-09-03T19:18:00.000-07:00

We found Atlantis
you…
and…
I

Your fingers
like magic…
bathymeters recording
all contours
of me…
all depths of me

leaving me breathless…
leaving me baryphonic

A bascule
only attempts
to record our love…
only both ends
sink deeply into
the deepest depths
of the sea…

Everything
about us…
our love…
is bathyorographical

The sea keeps her secrets
and so do we...
I know where to find
you…
your bathysmal soul...

Atlantis is not lost
it is found only to us…
Our secret spot
where you found my bathypelagic heart
brought back to life
by the rhythmic
tides of the sea
her sweet endless berceuse

The bathythermograph does not lie…
the water temperatures rise
we run hot together
you and I……
We will tell them
not to worry
it is only global warming

and the Sea
she will keep our secret
safe in Atlantis

Poseidon will walk me down the aisle
Proteus will wed us
and Arion will carry us away
to the long forgotten geographical
center of the sea…

We will honeymoon and make love
in beautiful gardens
of glowing benthos
Where no one will know
No one will see…
The Sea…
She knows our secret
its safe in her keeping
We found Atlantis
a sunken world
known only to us

Our secret Atlantis
where our love is benthic
Where we happily drown in each other

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Only a Song My Heart Hears

2010-09-03T19:14:00.000-07:00

My dreams follow Chordeiles minor south-
His winter’s flight that promises me no return.
My lips hold tight a frown upon my mouth,
My ears deaf to the sad bird songs for which I yearn.
Those singing birds with the way they sink;
Their lyrical beaks into the thoughts my heart does think
Thoughts like startled starlings which fester in anxious flight,
An already crippled movement stopped between a painful heartbeat,
Cleverly suspended amongst the webs of words I write
In raw emotions-open and honest nothing discreet.

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Nocturnal Predators

2010-09-03T19:12:00.000-07:00

Foreboding sharpening becoming less a thought
More a taste-bitter flavor of fear
Insomnia-nothing new
Forced into the wakeful state of reality
Wishing for the solace found in dreams
Suppressed sobs lost in a dry wind
Shivering through laced tree boughs
Waiting patiently for the nonexistent rain
To cleanse the soul, wash the stains clean
Whistling static drowns the calm required for sleep
Becoming hissing roars that stir wild thoughts
Like nothing is everything and everything is gone
And Hell is lying sleepless in the dark
Listening for the choir of wolves
Piping ululant wails
Their ghostly serenade-
A blood song melody
That preludes the kill
Singing of the strange hungers and gnawing needs
Of a starved heart which collapses into itself
With a slow current of dread that
Ripples like a fever chill
Those horrid thoughts that kill
Not in a way that leaves you dead only
Keeping you wide awake at night instead
Nocturnal hunters-stalking their prey
Insomnia-nothing new

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No Shadows in Music

2010-09-03T19:09:00.000-07:00

There are no shadows
in music, just emotion
translated into song, only
sometimes born from torment
turned into beauty
even if…

angry
blue
or broken

any musician knows this well

somewhere a musician's
heart cries tears jagged
like the edge of the
crescent moon

he is writing a new song
to heal old wounds
his inspiration-
his own heartbeat

beating with a sound
that rattles and stutters
like wild castanets
tangled in tormenting feelings-
and pains from deep within
he needs to translate them
outside in, inside out

he sits in an empty room
empty of everything
but shadows and
his guitar

his fingers travel
cool steel strings
all alone, and
scratch a one rhythm section-
a beautiful chord

creating a sound born of
raw feelings and heart
translating his
inner thoughts
easing his pain
and temporarily
dancing his tormenting
shadows away

in the end the musician
finds solace in a new song

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Nature

2010-09-03T19:07:00.000-07:00

I stand in the rain inhaling the petrichor on the soft storm’s breeze,
Listening to the music of raindrop falling against the leaves of trees,
Nature is a timeless beauty-carries exceptional grace
That of which mankind and all their creations can never replace
We can never control her emotions-and in the wake of this truth we are made meek,
Our powers, when compared to hers are nothing but weak.
Nature abounds under the smallest rock, the deepest sea, and the expansive sky above
We tear her flesh, burn her wooden veins-where is our mercy, our love?
She has given us the soft earth between our toes upon which we walk,
Given to us the breathtaking beauty of seasons and life that bring us to gawk,
She is the splendor behind the rise and fall of the blue ocean tides,
she is the fragrant scent dancing from flowered petals opened wide,
She is the ancient bough laced forest all-knowing and wise,
She is the great blue expanse of the infinite skies,
She is all this and more than we’ll ever come to know, she is more than you and me,
For she is you and me and from this truth we cannot flee.
Should we one day destroy her for good,
We destroy everything and ourselves, how can this not be understood?
We must seek balance and harmony with her to keep things right,
To keep our future and hers bright.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

A Love Like Poetry

2010-09-03T19:05:00.000-07:00

One day we will write poetry-you and I,
With echoed heartbeats, passionate kisses, tender touches;
A bright horizon promise for us draws nigh-
To be lost in each other’s gentle clutches,
To hold each other close whispering words
With true meanings like I love you;
Our love will soar beyond the heights of birds,
One day our love will be like poetry.

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Nameless Oeuvre

2010-09-03T19:04:00.000-07:00

I want to write you a missive
but mere mondegreens
would paralyze the paper

paper laced with words;
words meant to be mellifluous
But I cannot write

I have lost my words
Wait! no I misspoke;
the words are not lost

The words are not flowing
or rhyming just stuck
on the tip of my tongue

Out of my reach but there
tormenting me;
those words

Words desiring to be
adroitly conflated
with raw emotion

Words longing to be
SET FREE
to be UNDERSTOOD

But alas I am misunderstood
a peccadillo hiding beneath
flesh of a ridiculous ingenue

If I did know you
I would tell you
I love petrichor

and anything
remotely pelagic
that's why I love horses

I would tell you a secret
I love big words; ones I can write
but cannot pronounce

but even more than those
I love poetic words
and beautiful pictures

I could be your moiety
drifting upon
a foudroyant offing

The piece searching
for a piece-whole heart
the complete puzzle

just out of reach
like my words
I am desperate

to capture; be captured

I would ask you
if you can swim
Yes?! Then swim to me

Adumbrate please
the thoughts on your mind
I would be in love to know

I want the serendipity
in synchronicity
to find me

happenstance
finding what it is
you are not looking for

I want you to
FIND ME because
I am too scared to look for you

serendipity within the sempiternal
close your eyes
can you see?

This is not a poem
or a Nameless Oeuvre
it has a name only you can give it

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Offing Lost

2010-09-03T19:01:00.000-07:00

The offing is lost somewhere beyond here and there

a bare of ship horizon leads to nowhere but somewhere beyond here and there

somewhere beyond here and there is a time named, this second right now

where is he in this moment?

I am but lost in shattered tears while he sings a song- a lyrical blizzard of

swallows for her

Near to a shore lost by the offing already lost.

Time line, time line does not lie

and I do not write pretty pictures just emotions like moth ravaged tapestries on weathered walls

in old cold castled halls

reminiscent of the bard stile that once brought passage to my heart

before it fell apart

Pieces of which now lost in the offing -lost somewhere beyond the here and there

Somewhere beyond a time named, this second right now

where is my heart in this moment,

Clenched in his teeth somewhere on a bare of ship horizon leading nowhere with him,

just the swallows

who sing for her.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Sea of Sin

2010-09-03T19:00:00.001-07:00

Voyagers we are
but lost upon the infinite ocean
Days of challenge to endure
days of peace to enjoy
The waves of time walloping and
assaulting or soothing our flesh
condemned by our ancestral sin
Across barbed stile- sea anemone tongues
sting us to stop in our tracks
leave us off guard but still struggling
to live and enjoying the pain
that often feels good
until the after taste is felt
A certain eternity echoes
forever our name but
scrupulously reflects the same life
constructed new flesh to
cover old bones, to live
again continuously because
we forsake our absolute truth
Compelled by lust, by greed
we mask our past
The red apple of Eden
turns a succulent cherry
and bursts again that same sin
bound again and again
to the rise and fall
with the infinite ocean waves
forever lost at sea

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Metensomatosis

2010-09-03T18:56:00.000-07:00

There is a hole
in tomorrow
the size of
yesterday
and we are
all stuck
in the middle
of today
which looks
a lot like
Wednesday
almost a
Thursday
but not quite
a Tuesday,
like a wave
that swells
in the neap
of oceanic time
stuck in the
metemptosis
the day purposely
vanished,
that moment
found at
the edge of
Forever
the place
where all souls go
to prepare for
metensomatosis
That hole
in tomorrow
looks a lot
like today
and the
reflection of yesterday
and the promise of
Tomorrow…

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Leave Behind

2010-09-03T18:55:00.001-07:00

Watch me the crooked sparrow
fly towards the hole
in the empty sky
slowed down by
juvenile wings and heavy bones

you watch me
leave this world behind
far behind
the tears I shed
bleed into spurious synthetic citizens
marching like ants
forming trafficking black veins
connecting like highways
consuming all in their wake
and leaving dark smog smoke
across her once fair face

mother earth is dying
beautifully ugly
isn’t she?
watch me the crooked sparrow
fly toward the hole
in the empty sky
not giving a damn
about what is left behind
the ruins and
mankind
death by his own hand
prophesized his own fate

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Isometric Isomorphism

2010-09-03T18:51:00.001-07:00

(i really have no idea where my mind was going with this...I just went with it and this poem is the result)

Every day I wake up to a one dimensional world…

human monotony
Religion and Politics together- a mind stunting neoteny
what travesty
People blind, not able to see outside and beyond indoctrinated reality
Losing piece by piece their absolute totality
disillusioned by their stunted mentality

The Euclidean March I call it
perfected by political propaganda and holy writ

Humanity walks a very thin line
without knowledge of real time

Human monotony limiting us to one dimension
our intellect and consciousness are kept from ascension
handicapping our mind
making the truth so very hard to find
Humanity not thinking beyond one dimension barely seeing two
let along three or four
or the possibility of there ever being more
no longer having the drive to explore
for a truth they would most certainly adore

They continue this one dimensional thinking
never rethinking
just one dimensional flat thinking

thinking only Inside out and not outside and beyond
just content trying to be part of the beau monde,
that never ceasing pathetic materialistic quest
of which the truly intelligent are never impressed

for the intelligent are always searching
and always researching

continuing to look for all the answers
They are the never ceasing intellectual dancers

While the others are stuck in their false reality
that forecasts a certain fatality

Each person trapped on their own embedded layer
unable to see the truth of the universal multilayer

stuck we are in a complex system of an isometric isomorphism
searching for our hyperbolic quaternion- our magic prism
we are stuck between untruth and truth in a hellish schism
Lucky I have been, for I have gazed through the optical prism
into a world that goes on infinitely outside the hellish schism
I have learned that when ordinary three dimensions of space combine
they form a single dimension of time
a waltz called Minkowski's Spacetime

a four dimensional manifold
a place where many dimensions of possibility unfold
a reality that is true site to behold

The mindless mass of humanity can have their one dimensional world
I have held the knowledge of the truth unfurled
I have seen the truthful real world

I would rather waltz with Minkowski while singing his tune
than march with Euclidean to his doom
"Space by itself
and time by itself
are doomed
to fade away
into mere shadows
unless they dance
together in unison
preserving their
Independent Reality"

Einstein knew it, so too did Lorentz and Poincare

Chasing after Truth, Time, and Space for eternity shall be a wild affair!

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Interlunation

2010-09-03T18:49:00.000-07:00

(this is a work in progress)

Children are safe
within
their once upon a time
COCOON
safe in make believe-

fantasy
fables
and
fairy tales

safe in
their innocent
unreality
protecting them
until their wings
are able and
strong enough
to hold them aloft
when it truly matters

reality waits…
hiding at the back
of the moon
lurking in the
interlunation

waiting for
the chance
to break through
the paper
thin
sheltering walls
of their
imaginary world

waiting to
show them the truth
of how they will
spend
the rest of their lives…

as an adult

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Insomniac

2010-09-03T18:48:00.001-07:00

no sleep
only an
illustrated wakefulness
hovering on
the edge of a dream
i wake to walk sideways
into the burgeoning day
there is no
morning star
visible in my night's
vanishing sky
i confuse fear with grief
and block my tears
until i become
too numb to feel
a damn thing

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Pinch Back

2010-09-03T18:39:00.000-07:00

Ill-fated Jonah

2010-09-03T18:33:00.000-07:00

Your persona burns blue
the way a driftwood fire ravages sea salt
the real you is the character untrue
shift the blame for in others you find the fault
you are everything entirely perfect
or so you thought-you are but a ghost, pale, and hollow
what you touch you infect
and I find your being hard to swallow
no matter how sweet your song
no matter how beautiful your voice
you are wrong, oh so wrong

everything you are is pressed between
the pages of Jay Mcinerney’s imperfect city
Bright lights , wild nights, nicotine and caffeine
you are not worth a single ounce of pity
John Fowler gave you a clever name:
Nicholas Urfe suits your character too
bored, depressed, disillusioned, and overwhelmed by shame
and I bid the pathetic you, adieu
Oaths in marriage will not kill your decadent persona,
for sake of a rhyme I’ll call you the ill-fated Jonah…

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(inspired by the a musician who use to play women better than his instruments...)

I Stand Alone

2010-09-03T18:30:00.000-07:00

I stand inside the glass case
always alone
a show piece but not really
just the price of thinking differently
"Item one!" hollers the auctioneer
a crowd of potential buyers gather
they all look alike
almost identical
but nothing like me
"Oh isn't she beautiful!" one bidder remarks
"Exquisite!" another yells excitedly
"Minute and so finely detailed!" still another shouts
"Unique, truly one-of-a-kind!" shrieks a louder one still
"Fifty thousand!" cries the first bidder
"Eighty thousand!" says the next
"Make that one hundred thousand!"
Then I hear
my own voice
scream
"I bid one ounce of truth!"
Glass shatters at my feet
all around
Now I stand alone amongst the shards
in an empty room
my world, all I know
the highest bid wins
Independent minds think alone but not alike

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(Inspired by a poem my grandmother used to tell me as a child)

I Don't Like Friday

2010-09-03T18:28:00.000-07:00

In a quiet moment of personal reflection I remembered today why I don't like Friday.

Too many things end on a Friday
just as too many troubles begin....

My grandfather died on a Friday
Two years later, so did my grandmother.
Friday claimed my beloved sheltie dog.
Just as a horrible car wreck took my dear friend.

The worst day of my life found me on a Friday.

Friday was the day I self-destructed.

Nine years ago on a Friday
I let my mother down in her greatest moment of need- the most important person in my life.
It was a Friday that cancer came to visit her and stayed for quite awhile.

Friday in a fit of scared tears, at college, she called me.
Desperately needing someone to talk to- her only daughter, her best friend.
That very Friday I hung up on her as soon as she told me the news.

I was too scared to hear those words. I couldn't listen, I didn't want to.
I never touched a drop of alcohol until that Friday.
I threw my innocence away on that very Friday,
just so I could hurt myself as badly as I had hurt her.

Friday is the worst day.

Every time Friday comes my way
I remember
and I still feel the guilt.
I have not forgiven myself, but my mother has, she understood my fear before I did.

I'll take a Tuesday over a Friday
Give me a Saturday, Sunday, or Monday, even a Thursday
But spare me another somber Friday.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Heart’s Nightmare

2010-09-03T18:27:00.001-07:00

A blooming golden sunrise
chases a daydream to the sky
a daydream colored red
like love, like passion
a daydream of what
I have not
I don't chase dreams
anymore
especially dreams of love
love fades away
down the road in twilight
becoming vanished thoughts
perplexing my yesterdays
haunting my tomorrows
while, today, I am left
still contemplating
what love was,
is,
is not
perhaps never will be
for me
my daydream
is
my heart's nightmare

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Heart is a House

2010-09-03T18:25:00.000-07:00

WICKED
dilapidated
empty house
gone silver with time
there a few sounds
so dead and hollow

NOTHING

nothing at all

you'll find it is locked
the keys have been lost for years
all doors
all windows

LOCKED

are the all locked tight?

superstition brushing his skin
his attempt to reach her
knocking on the door of
a place outside the world

she is
not answering
gave up
on love
a house locked tight

KNOCK KNOCK
who is there?

...he doesn't care
to give up on her

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Forever and A Day

2010-09-03T18:23:00.000-07:00

A silent name
on the tip of my
stifled heart's tongue
beckons
to my soul,
keeping it alive
with
a hope that
Plato's Aristophanes'
words could ignite
in absolute truth
the reality and possibility
of twin flames
actually existing.
I will wait as long as it takes if it means waiting forever and a day.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(inspired by {Plato's concepts of Soulmates)

Forgiveness

2010-09-03T18:22:00.000-07:00

The old wind whispers through my hair
as I sit back against my favorite tree
contemplating the shadows of yesterday
which still sting me today
shadows like choices
I wish
I never made in my youthful
INNOCENCE

My lost subconscious cries
as my benign heart
shatters not unlike
the mirror which reflects
the lost image of myself
that I brazenly dropped
when I grew disgusted
by the sight of
the recognizable stranger
looking back at me

I saw my transparent self
the person on the other side
the one who always looks
like me
except for that
DAMN
smile

I look at the pieces of glass
now at scattered at my feet
sharply abstracted tiles
reflecting that image still
this time hundreds of
fragments of
HER

I feel sorry for her
and I can't help but ask
the pieces of her
do you hate me?
Her calm expression is distracted
by an intense recognition
I hear her say
NO, just forgive yourself
and I will be okay
and so will you...
FORGIVE

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Fly Away Butterfly

2010-09-03T18:19:00.000-07:00

I want to be a
fly away butterfly
wearing the monarch
colors of innocence
that time never fades

I want to be a
fly away butterfly
with an unmasked beauty
mellowed by sudden
untimely timidness

I want to soar with confidence
I want to flutter low
I want to be a
fly away butterfly
for all she represents
contentment epitomized
in all the greatest sense

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Find You

2010-09-03T18:14:00.000-07:00

Wearing an upside down frown
In my tears all I can do is drown
Before me the desolate road
And pent up emotions about to explode
Searching for a way back
Through the empty pitch black
Looking for someone like you
Holding a promise of love so true
I want to be with someone like you

All the dreams I am chasing after
Are promises of you, my happily ever after
I've been searching for someone like you
Holding a promise of love so true
Please just reach for my hand
And take my heart if you understand

I'll give you my forever heart
Nothing will ever tear us apart
Together forever we are meant to be
I am the lock and you are the key
To a life that promises happily ever after
And all the dreams I've been chasing after

Searching for a way back
Through the empty pitch black
Looking for someone like you
In my tears all I can do is drown
While wearing this silly frown
Before me the empty desolate road
And pent up emotions about to explode

Together forever
For better or worse
There is no one I'd rather be with
With you love is no myth
I am searching for someone like you
Holding a promise of love so true
I'll find my way back

Through all the empty pitch black
I will find someone like you
and love anew

I am searching for someone like you
Holding a promise of love so true

There is no one I'd rather be with
With you love is no myth
I am searching for someone like you
Holding a promise of love so true
I'll find my way to someone like you
I will find you
I will find you
I will find you
I will find you
I will find you

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(A somewhat "dorky" attempt at writing a song)

Fall Down Fledgling

2010-09-03T18:10:00.000-07:00

She wakes up
in the morning
for the sunrise
just to see it
fall
d
o
w
n
come night

She is quartering
her dreams
and false hopes
upon a ship
called
r
e
a
l
i
t
y
She, the girl
who has everything
parents like
b
i
r
d
s
regurgitating
things like
dollars & cents
cars & a house
education
a no struggle future
into her
p
o
c
k
e
t
s
Parent like undying
hearts who love
her unconditionally
giving her
a world
u
n
r
e
a
l
to most people

Parents who have
given her
the
s
t
a
r
s
and the
m
o
o
n
She doesn't fear
being the fall
down
f
l
e
d
g
l
i
n
g
not when she
has parents
like
p
a
r
a
c
h
u
t
e
s
She, the girl
who has
everything
h
a
n
g
s
onto emotional words
that reveal a
s
e
c
r
e
t
that swells
like an eagre
in her
h
e
a
r
t
an ocean
overflowing
with letters that
spell
t
r
u
t
h
one can have
everything
and still have
n
o
t
h
i
n
g
important but
the nauseant
silver spoon
t
a
s
t
e
which doesn't satisfy
the need to share
her heart
she'll
t
r
a
d
e
the taste
to have
it
a
l
l
Even a fall down
fledgling
can learn to FLY on her own heart…

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Fade

2010-09-03T18:08:00.000-07:00

misery loves company
madnesss calls it forth
she steps backwards
and fades into darkness
dying in the same way
as the sun sinks to sleep

Copyright © 2010 L. Warren

Ecstasy

2010-09-03T18:07:00.000-07:00

I want to wander beyond
the reach of mankind
capturing rhythms of time in a jar;
tick-tock fireflies
bioluminescent emotions
born of
yesterdays,
todays,
tomorrows,
and forevers…
bioluminescent emotions
lighting the way
to that special place
a special world
so different, so untouched
a world reached only through thought,
only through shared emotion
only by the joining of
two hearts,
two minds,
two souls,
two people…
a secret world found only through love

I would die to know such a place;
If only just once...

I would die to find you
the one who can take me there…

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Demonocracy

2010-09-03T18:01:00.000-07:00

Look at all the janiform politicians
Who abuse their elected positions
Jambiya like tongues and deceitful words
To keep in check their janizary herds
When will people see the truth; they are all one and the same?

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

A Matter of Time

2010-09-03T17:58:00.000-07:00

Tick-tock time is the creator of change and Tick-tock time is a clever thief; a silent weaver and consumer of our mind and our life. Time swallows time, devours itself continually like Ouroboros. The first day for us will always and infinitely be our last day because all things begin in order so they can end in order. Time reminds us that just as there is a beginning and an end, there also isn't a beginning or end, because what always has been always will be, except different...this time changed and DNA is the time piece of Eternity-forever-always, growing, changing, and evolving with tick-tock time leading the way.

time
once remembered
now forgotten
initially praised,
insulted later
hopes eternal
suffering longer
only change is certain
up and down go together
just as
right and wrong
dark and light
day and night
good and evil
male and female
alive and dead
it is only a matter of time
wait awhile longer
only change is certain
rocks of ages
deserts only
sand and mountains all the same
monuments erected
ruins now crumbled
from dirt return to dirt
man lives to die
only to live again
ashes to ashes
dust to dust
birth to death
death to birth
all over again
only change is certain
in an eternal life
tick-tock time reminds us all
it is only a matter of time
wait a little longer

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Compendium

2010-09-03T17:57:00.000-07:00

the message wasn't
subliminal
i don't think you can hear it
and neuro-sensoric baryecoia
is an illness
however my message was
written so
i don't think you can see it
and Onchocerciasis
is contagious

i guess i won't get
too close…

besides
you have a half mile
smile that
cannot go the
full distance

…not unlike your heart

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Broken Shell

2010-09-03T17:56:00.001-07:00

A five year old girl
searching for shells
with her mother
along the Florida Tide line

reaches down and finds
the perfect one
it was the right color
the right shape
size,
it was beautiful to her eyes

beaming she ran to show her mother
who took one look
and told her to through it back
it had a chip
it had a crack
it wasn't perfect

not suitable for the collection
of already perfect shells
they had back home

those were weighted words
bearing significant meaning
coming from a mother
whose child was born imperfect
who nearly died at birth

words are strong
words become pillars
indestructible foundations
to build a life upon

the child looked sadly at her beautiful shell
and gave it back
to the sea
so no one would see
the chip
or the crack
on that beautifully imperfect shell
she had cradled so gently so lovingly in her palm

that child grew up wondering
how many would throw her back
for her imperfections
her broken shell

she paints pictures now
and writes words
to cauterize the wounds
of a hurt that runs deep

she felt so sorry for that shell
as she still feels sorry for it now
the same way she feels sorry
for herself today

see me
see me
see me
she pleads
hoping others
will SEE her

NOT FLAWS

the beauty is truly in the imperfections

it wasn't her mother's fault
she just didn't
think about the implications of what
she said…
or how her child would
receive the words

I have a collection
of beautifully
imperfect shells
in a jar by the window

because I love them…
all imperfectly perfect, just the way they are
individual and unique

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Eternal Return Casket

2010-09-03T17:51:00.000-07:00

Eternal body- material body
flesh and bone, a living casket
veins wrap tendons and tissue
holding together the bones: all of
which bleed, tear, break, and die
only a cage to hold tight
a stifled heartbeat and
acquired memories through time
to bind our soul inside-trapped.
Forever
some of us forget
not all of us forgot- yesterdays remembered.
Recurrence costumes Ouroboros well
In this perfected Hell;
We will do it all over again
tomorrow
next year
next life
In our Infinity, a casket like clock
cycling endlessly
The Conundrum- What’s the point?
Where is God now?

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(Inspired by Friedrich Nietzsche, Arthur Schopenhauer, and the idea of eternal recurrence)

Cardonnacum No Longer

2010-09-03T16:50:00.000-07:00

A surfeit of desire feeds
The involucre ventricles of humanity’s heart
Deep grooves running their punishing course
Scored notches-resemble counting coups
Just representational lines
Of sexscapades and material gains
Chivalry died ages ago, forever lost in time
Now thistle grows only as a weed
In our Eden-worthy of extermination
Antonio Vivaldi’s melodic birds silenced
Carduelis carduelis no longer able to
Feed upon the poisoned thistledown
Instead their innocent
Feathered bodies devoured wholly
By common flies.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Birds Are Not Free

2010-09-03T16:49:00.001-07:00

Blind Heart

2010-09-03T16:12:00.000-07:00

Oh how your words hurt me at times,
pretty little pains they are
the way they sink into my flesh
like lyrical tongues of glass
becoming the transparent
parasites in an underground river;
causing the Onchocerciasis of my heart.
Blind flowing blood sticking in still frames
movement captured in microseconds
and almost-heartbeats, yet still coursing
quickly through my capillaries for you.
My heart is blind…

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Areion

2010-09-03T15:55:00.000-07:00

Poseidon, Poseidon
You have captivated me since I was a child.
I have loved you and your many names always:

Enosichthon,
Seischthon,
Ennosigaios,
Neptune,
E-NE-SI-DA-O-NE,
PO-SE-DA-WO-NE
Brother of Zeus and Hades
I have loved your grace and respected your temper

feared your might and power

Tumultuous blue thundering waves against soft sand shore
Alas, I must confess to you, I love Areion, your son even more.
With thundering hooves Areion made off with me heart

and from him I shall never part.
Areion, Areion
I have loved you since I was a child.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Always This Puzzle Piece

2010-09-03T15:53:00.000-07:00

Each morning when I wake
trying to find
who I am
with the endless missing puzzle piece
fleeing me again
the sadness is intensified
that I
should always be
swimming in an ocean
that has
no isle for me

At night when I lay me down
before another day
I dream a dream of voices
that speak
but never say
leaving
just a wanting
waiting hole in me
for something to return again that
never seemed to be.

Truly blessed and complete
in life are
those who have found
that once missing puzzle piece.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

1998

2010-09-03T15:44:00.001-07:00

I then, the codling- not quite red,
but ripe enough to allow an older him a small bite.
Sampling tastes of the peccadillo promises bled,
so cheaply from a seton he stitched upon my heart- tight.
The tenacles of his clever lies and pretend love
caused the permanent ulosis on my heart.
Innocence lost; he ripped white feathers from a fledgling dove,
and when he had his way, had his fill he did depart-
from an unsuspecting me to an unsuspecting wife
oh, woe is youthful naivety and lessons learned
those harsh truths that cut like a knife
followed by the feelings of being burned

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren
(I was 18 and believed in fairytales)

Algolagnia Reversed

2010-09-03T15:40:00.001-07:00

My lacuna chest is the result of a malloseismic heart
because of the cunning agapet who tore it apart.
The art of algedonics is very well learned,
And the consequences of love have left me badly burned.
What is love, but the definite anacrisis of the soul?
It can leave you empty- never feeling completely whole.
I felt the algolagnia reversed
when love became nothing but everything cursed.
Poikilothermic I’ve transformed
Out of a love that grew deformed.
Unforgiving of him, for the worsement of my heart
And from my love from which he chose to depart.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(I love old rare obscure words...and I like to play with them in poetry)

Built on Stilts

2010-09-03T15:36:00.000-07:00

i feel i have been built
on stilts
like a tipsy water tower
in rough winds

filled with water
like emotions
dirty blue
5 feet 3 inches deep
about to spill

i could take a step forward
but it is easier to go
back

call me
COWARD

i can submit
to the drag
of a polar world
that looms just
beyond
the paper thin
door before me

life is a maze
a complicated maze
convincing me
no one and I mean
no one
ever finds
the true end

the end is only the
metaphor
for MEANING

What is the MEANING
of this life?
WHO AM I?
WHO ARE YOU?
WHY ARE WE HERE?

the idea that
happiness is not
always in the air
we breathe
is a suffocating
thought…

ISN'T IT?
ISN'T IT?

now it is my turn
to babble like
an inconsequential
behavior existentialist
the difference being that
i know
and
i understand
that i have fallen victim
to existential obstacles…

despair
angst
alienation
absurdity
and
the worst of all…

BOREDOM

acceptance of situations
beyond my control
allows me to realize
i am no better
than anyone else…

even while i pursue
my own life meaning
as i try to live passionately

and sincerely

i know what i am not…
unlike so many people
and
i accept what i am
unlike so many people
and like so many people
i still search for meaning

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Tell It to The Paper

2010-09-03T11:59:00.000-07:00

I have tried to leave the weeping to the willows
but I shed my tears anyway.
I simply cannot muster the strength
it takes to dam them up,
hold them back,
or fortify them any longer.
My heart screams at me,
not with words
but with raw emotions,
"TELL IT TO THE PAPER!"
So I tell it to the paper,
for I cannot speak out loud
the words my emotions become.
I fear they could drown in the sound of my voice,
lost in translation
and nobody is listening to me anyway.

So I tell it to the paper,
sometimes writing in words,
sometimes painting in pictures.
However I choose to express myself
the paper is always eager for my touch.
Sometimes I communication with it gently,
sometimes roughly,
sometimes I am dirty,
or silly,
sometimes I laugh with it,
and often times I cry.
The tears I shed are lovingly absorbed,
soaked up,
dried up
and become secrets
locked safely away,
secrets that just the paper and I share.
The paper has become my best lover.
It lies there calmly absorbing my love
and accepting me for everything I am
and everything I am not,
like no other lover has before.
It cradles my tormenting emotions
in a tender and forgiving embrace…like no other lover.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Storm is Over

2010-09-03T11:55:00.000-07:00

The night storm, over at last
the sky becomes starry and cloudless
I noticed the birth of dawn
slowly crowning the horizon.
Daylight flooded the sky
I can consider it now...
the birth of something new
the night storm over at last
the nightmare finished
my new beginning
starting over

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Marabuntas Marching

2010-09-03T11:52:00.000-07:00

They come from the darker corners;
from the shadows of the streets.
The places where the darker realities
of humanity creeps.

The marabuntas marching;
with a penchant for violence
of infamous renown.
Membership ensures a life
for them to own.

The marabuntas marching;
while speaking a portmanteau language,
derived from Spanish and English.
A perfected and well-developed language system they relish.

The marabuntas marching;
organizing themselves in groups,
called cliques and fractions.
Each with a certain fatal attraction.

The marabuntas marching;
with intent to recruit our young.
An organized hierarchy,
hell-bent on controlled chaos and structured
Anarchy.

The marabuntas marching;
and feeding off the easily influenced,
who become pawns of their merciless way.
More cold bodies for them to throw-away.

The marabuntas marching;
onward with their own method of governance,
with their own methods of punishment-
a horrific way of maiming,
by skills acquired by guerilla-military training.

The marabuntas marching;
and reminding us all of their presence,
with their well established pecking order.
Throwing signs, stacking, and check-courting,
always their way of retorting.

The marabuntas marching;
recruiting, trafficking, contract killing, selling,
jumping, harassing, organizing, planning,
and ever expanding.
You had better "trucha"
Here comes Mara Salvatrucha………

To take yet another child from me today

Oscar, Felipe, Tom, Juan, Jose, Miquel, Troy, Sam, Carlos,
Veronica, Jesus, Jasmine, Darnell, Sharley, T.J. Alex,
Fernando, Dante……..

Here comes Mara Salvatrucha
To take another child from me today;
to take another child from us today.

How many children of ours will be gone tomorrow?
Next week? Next Year?
Much too many, I fear….

Here comes Mara Salvatrucha
to falsely promise our children a good life,
one wrought with strife.

Here comes Mara Salvatrucha
to take another life

And the marabuntas go marching on by………………….

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(this is a poem inspired by the life circumstances many of my students have found themselves in)

The Mind of Eden

2010-09-03T11:51:00.001-07:00

Gestational Observation

your are reading my writing-seeing my thinking

a thought
from my head

can become a seed I plant deep
in your mind
I step back
watch it grow
watch it grow…

a piece of myself grows in you
deep
deep
Rooted deep…

our thoughts are but pieces grown from
the seeds of each other

didn't you know?
did you not know?

we are all a part of each other, linked infinitely forever

grown in the mind of Eden

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Time is Forever's Sepulchre

2010-09-03T11:48:00.000-07:00

Time is Forever's Sepulchre
Everything is muted and doesn't seem as it was.
Every hour is so very different, than
the one that's long spent and past.
I am so easily misunderstood,
even by those who know me best, even by myself.
I ask too many questions that cannot be answered.
Simply because the ones that can be, bore me.

We begin as a grain of sand in an oyster.
Years go by, each stirring patterns
a layer around the crude partical of sand
More years go by, experience gained,
a measurement of time lived.
Making us what we are.
The envelope of time is merely our oyster shell.
Time plans our hours, days, and even years.

Time has set our limitations to dying:
because we will never have all the minutes,
or live by all the moments,
because we will never have all the time.

I know the world is rushing by me.
Everyone is scurrying like mice in a cat's cage,
trying to beat every minute by seconds.
I can't keep up, I can't breathe,
and I have no more secrets to hide.
The quicksilver web of time
runs brilliantly through my open fingers.
Metallic drops of rolling light
coming together, becoming a glimmering coat upon
transparent ordinary hours.

I continue contemplating time.
I can only guess that time is the measurement
of waves of motion.
Like hands revolving around an infinite galaxy ocean.
Time sets our thoughts a drift.
Time reminds us we are human.
It reminds us we are mortal.
But if time is the oyster shell,
then shouldn't the pearl be the soul?
If souls never die are we truly mortal?

Thoughts are a lot like time,
both roam like the sea.
I understand drifting and dreaming to be the same thing.
But please don't ask me why.
Because I won't ever know.
Contemplate it yourself.
Gifted are those blessed with thought,
and those capable of thinking.

Time often makes me feel
as though I am the elegy the poet left unfinished
Sometimes I wonder where I've been
and where I want to go.
I lie awake and think, think, think,
but I never seem to know.

My autonomic soul
resides within a revolving clock.
Around and around it goes,
Tick-tock-Tick-tock,
where will it stop?
Even I don't know.
A soul is but a transmutation of Primal Fire
molded from an experience developed
by an ever ticking time.

If time is an endless measure,
what then is forever?
It must be faceless and free.
It must be a great nothing and a great everything-altogether.
No edges. Forever is like no other thing

Yet still I contemplate....
meditating and reliving
that very hour, that very eve
When I first recognized that I would never
be able to ever figure it all out.
I think about many things always.
If there be such a thing as soul,
then truly we are not born without an end.
Infinitely we continue.

On and on.
Endlessly.
This life to the next.
If this is not the case
I shed tears for those who do waste
such precious years.

Time
We cannot best its relentless force.
For seconds, then hours,
then days, and years
they all seem to blend.
Time just like the sea,
will forever be
a virgin to the frustrations of captivity.

Time is forever's sepulchre.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Triangles of Frau Lou

2010-09-03T11:44:00.000-07:00

Oh, Louise Andreas-Salome did you put the trios in ménage trios?
Of you, of your mind, I am so in awe.
You the intellectual whore so misunderstood.
Oh Frau Lou to be like you, I wish I could!

What becomes of the female mind
when intelligence is to become so entwined?
A dangerous woman does it make?
Even Freud feared to be caught in your wake.

Oh, Frau Lou a lover of many men of great mind,
holder of a youthful beauty so pure it could blind.
The triangles of Frau Lou could once dangerously bind,
many a men of great mind.

Hendrik Gillot, Paul Ree, Friedrich Nietzsche, Frederick Carl Andreas,
George Ledebour, Frank Wedekind, Arthur Schnitzler,
Rainer Maria Rilke, Paul Bjerre, Vietor Tausk,
Adler, Carl Jung, Arnold Zweig,
Friedrich Pineless, Sigmund Freud and so many more,
fell under the charm of you, the intellectual whore.
Some loved you, some lusted after you.

Some did neither of both, but all respected you.

You, a keen observer of human nature with an indifference to moral convention,
with a burning desire for intellectual ascension.
You, whose sexuality and intellectual pursuits struggled in suspension.
Oh, Frau Lou your prose, your writings continue to hold my attention.

Louise Andreas-Salome, you found a brother hidden in every man,
only because you wished to live like a man.
A modern day tomboy of your time the women sought to ban.
You, a mastermind of female intelligence with a brilliant plan.

Frau Lou with your Pythagorean friendships and your insatiable intellectual curiosity
challenged the gender roles of your day with such ferocity.
You were Friedrich Nietzsche's twin-flame and most painful atrocity.
You played a role in turning his mind into a mental monstrosity.

Oh, Frau Lou a lover of many men of great mind,
holder of a youthful beauty so pure it could blind.
The triangles of Frau Lou could once dangerously bind,
many a men of great mind.

A Hedda Gabler in living skin,

the two of you so much a kin.
The similarities seen even by Ibsen,
when he made his famous female protagonist your near twin.

Louise Andreas-Salome did you every psychoanalyze yourself?
Where you happy with yourself?
Did you ever find pride and contentment with yourself?
I have found the one great thing missing in your many works was yourself.

You once said, "Two are at one only when they remain two."
Did you truly believe this to be true?
Your marriage unconsummated was not so unlike your brilliant works so devoid of you.
The distance between you and all you loved was a truth that was long over due.

I couldn't help but take notice of your unspoken hurt.
You had empathy for others you would not subvert.
Yet you had an inability to recognize your own hurt,
your own loneliness, your own pain, to yourself you were inert.

Pain is a pleasurable part of life,
a necessary liberating strife.
You knew this well because you studied it with your very own life,

you lived your life with this strife.

Did you ever truly love at all?
Your detailed writings on sex and sexuality could enthrall,
but sex is just sex without love after all.
Were you never so lucky to ever have known true love at all?

Yes, but of course, you were your Romeo Rainer's moonlight,
and the two of you made up for everything there wasn't time for in one night.
Fourteen years your junior, oh, Frau Lou how reality does bite.
Your passionate love for him, though not meant to last, did burn bright.

Miss Louise Andreas- Salome, Miss Frau Lou
Truth tells me the triangles bound only you,
within time, within your mind, and your soul, you were bound by you,
within the triangles belonging to Frau Lou.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Trapped

2010-09-03T11:43:00.000-07:00

My mind is trapped in between
parallel mirrors and a
kaleidoscope unreality,
those funhouse reflections
echo on endlessly.

I want to scream
but the sound
suffocated in a thought,
has my soul trapped
in a looking glass
no place to hide.

Time, Sir Chronos
he bears down on
me swiftly,
my eyes blinded
by truth
see me running
through the endless
halls of my mind.

The mirrors
dissolve my dreams
into infinity
forever out of reach
just like the stars
in the satellite
night sky.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Trick of the Moon

2010-09-03T11:41:00.000-07:00

i moved
as the silence filled
the oppressive empty night
feeling the
hithering-thithering
torments of
a shadow
intercepting the moon
under clouded shade
of indecisive love
and
prosiac fears
as a
trick of the moon
cojured up
nightingales tangled
on a silken thread
of guilt
no lover to lure back
in the moonlight
no comfort
just the result of
the shadowed moon

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Love Isn’t

2010-09-03T11:32:00.001-07:00

1. Love: word and emotion. Deceptive. Needed-
as air is to lungs. Natural instinct did this,
a caudate nucleus and dopamine. The flesh houses
of humankind, incurable. And me- pining
to be loved. Pining for love. I settled,
confusing lust for love. A broken heart,
a suffocating reality with punishing tears.

I tried to grow cold against love.
Only the need, like a drug, is overwhelming.

2. Lusting, just to love. Not patient enough
to wait for him, the right one.
No directions to find my way home,
that place where my heart is.
I fell apart, rebuilt walls, turned
into ice, destroyed favored dreams-freed myself.

But not really.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Vernicle Void

2010-09-03T11:28:00.001-07:00

Quarender devoured whole, every last succulent crumb
Racemation of sins leave our humanity numb
Sacristies found empty with not a single remnant of any God
Tabernacles for show, just part of the religious façade
Unipotent and exact will be humanity’s collapse

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(I like to use rare and obscure words, this is an ABC Poem where each line begins with the letters of the alphabet in order)

Want to Forget

2010-09-03T11:24:00.000-07:00

wolves born of contemplation
nipping at the heels of emotions,
emotions saturated in
hurt and shades of blue
wolves chasing feelings from heart to mind,
cruelly
whereupon i shall dwell on truth,
a truth that stings my mind
i want to forget
but thinking is a dangerous sort of
torment
i want to forget
ease the torment
of thinking born from
emotions and feelings
i want to grow numb…

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

White Night

2010-09-03T11:21:00.000-07:00

Seven: Twenty Five am
cold round face-harsh
bluntly confronting and
loudly whispering softly
a sound
tick-tock, tick-tock
an uncomfortable in my face
reminder- time flies
cold round face-haunts
endlessly while
frowning magisterially
an upside down smile
angularly bent at
Seven: Twenty Five pm
a certain suspended sharpness
of a numbered eternity
hollers in a loud
tick-tock like silence
quiet but never really-
just continuous,
alluding to a secret,
an unforeseen philosophic dilemma
not yet recognized
only just like an experience
almost hallucinatory in
its intensity
Sleepless nights are
not pretty unless described
by dead poets in
a White Night way
cold round face-time
frowning magisterially again
Seven: Twenty Five am
another sleepless night
to start my day

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

Woven Truths In Lost Words

2010-09-03T11:18:00.000-07:00

Abb’s pulled tight across a heartbeat loom
Baldaquin weavings hide the faith I lost in love and men
Cacotopia threads are the truth of my reality
Damoiseau contrived cloak he wore-never to be a knight
Ecarlate ecbatic only fully intended and meaningful in red
Factitious is love and hate just exhausting chemical emotions
Galimatias in life as I am in love

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(I wanted to use obscure words in a Alphabet poem-where each line begins with the letters of the alphabet in order)

Warring Heart

2010-09-03T11:10:00.000-07:00

The horses at dawn: with thrown heels
whinny and buck all the while the sun

displays a red sky morning- its angry splendor
swallows my image- a ghost like grey nimbus.

Rays of red, yellow, orange like stabbing lances
a hurt so bright, I shut my eyes and

prepare for the crack of thunder
those sharp hooves pounding fiercely.

I am fighting a losing battle against
my warring heart, I can’t breathe.

Copyright © 2010 L.Warren

(All Work is Copyrighted)

2010-09-03T11:08:00.000-07:00

Click on the image to see a larger version...Peotry reads,

Common Dandelion
I want to be free like a weed-
A floret from taraxacum parachute ball released to breeze
A bright future nourished from a promising seed,
Land where I want to, taking root where I please.
This is the way I would like my life to be-
No worries not troubles, just a wild weed
In the moment living free
No constraints and my own creed.